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• friday night was spent at home...getting totally rammed with phone calls, text messages, IMs, and the like.
• saturday afternoon, trekking around alabang with my brother, hanging out with kris at cuenca, more hanging out at kris' house, and awkward moments. wehehe
• come night time, even in the midst of strong rains and loss of electricity, hung out with my friends and friends of friends at zarky's. lotsa stuff there. OAH!!
• monday was mah birthday! wooh!
• good talking with my brother and angela.
• central is a pretty cool place to hang out at as well.
• my world is "j" driven.

well, i just turned 20. ooaahh!! in truth, it's got a pretty nice ring to it..twenty years old. i'm not one who has problems with that age thing. after all, it is just a number. things went pretty simple for me on my day...got greetings from the people i really wanted to get them from, spent time in good company, had good conversation, a dinner with my family...and even though nothing big happened, i'm pretty much satisfied.

been spending a lot of time with my high school friends. i love it. it's true that whatever happens, you've always got this group of friends you'll go back to..people you won't ever forget. ever since we (my hs friends and i) started college, we never really got to go and spend much time with each other. now, it's like a given thing that we meet up everyday, send messages, call, and a lot of other things. they're people with whom i've been through a lot with, and who probably know things about me that i've already forgotten! haha

the one thing that really sucks about this world is it is sooo full of immature asses. people who think they're too good for others. people who talk, think, act bullshit 100% of the time. man. i've been across these types of people during the course of my life, but right now, there's one person who really stands out. and it's not disappointing because i got crap from this person...it's disappointing because i gave too much benefit of the doubt, too much credit. and this individual deserves neither. pity the low level of character, the insanely huge immaturity. good riddance.

ahhh! i don't know why but right now, i'm feeling so great.

shout out: mom, dad, louie, everyone who sent me birthday greetings, ruggedly, silentmode, and everyone last saturday night.

6:00 am the day greets me with hot-headed people, one of them, i myself. a clashing of anger (for lack of a better word) ensues all throughout the morning, and even hunts down those who try to move out of the line of fire. i desperately try to escape the chaos and, as expected, i am accused of being disrespectful for attempting to leave the house without proper goodbyes. i could care less; "bakit bigla ka nalang aalis ng hindi nagpapaalam?". these words were said not in a furious manner, but in a tone that spelled it all - anger, hurt, disappointment, frustration. it wasn't necessary for it be said in a loud voice; that was enough. i took off for school, tears welling up uncontrollably in my eyes.

9:30 am the long 5-hour break begins, and i am clueless as to how i'm supposed to spend the time. i leave two friends and run an errand, which turns out to be a waste of time since i wasn't able to accomplish what i intended. i text a couple of people, but all are unavailable at the moment. no further developments occur. nothing is accomplished with my efforts.

12:00 nn *beep* i have a one new message. i press the buttons on my phone and open it. it's from my mom saying sorry about this morning's crap. awww. dramatic, i know, and i myself get into my own drama. i almost tear up again from the guilt i felt for being so bitchy. i type out a reply (saying sorry as well, and a few other things) and send it. immediately after that, i lose all bad feelings. i get the no-matter-what-happens-family-is-still-family feeling.

10:00 pm i find myself having coffee with a friend and immersed in serious conversation. 3rd serious conversation in a span of 2 days. it really confirms what i've known, but haven't been sure of for a long time: a lot of my friends really come to me if they need to talk about something, anything. it's not a bad thing - in fact it makes me feel great. i've come to realize that i am not good at sharing my problems with people anymore, but it makes me feel good to know that at least being able to listen to others somehow compensates for my introvertedness. i hope my friends don't stop looking to me for advice, or just to have someone to talk to. but i do hope the crammed feelings do.

dramatic i know. but i just love it sometimes. everyone needs a little drama from time to time.

first day of school...boring day, as we all know. just got stuffed with syllabus orientation and the like...ugh, what an ordeal...ang init pa...and i hate spaghetti strap blouses..NOT for me tlga...hahaha

ok, so i know maybe i see my parents as high achievers at times, and i know we all hate it when parents nag us about our friends, clothes, gimiks, and most importantly, our studies. but i have to admit, although i dunno if most will agree with me, that all the nagging is really just for our own good. so that shit doesn't happen and bite us on our asses in the future. and now that my brother failed an advanced summer course at the state university, i think it's time i throw out my silent, introverted self for now dish out wholehearted (although possibly unsolicited) opinions and advice.

i just wanna enjoy my last year in college!! hmm...how do i live it up..?

shout out: louie, phoebe, lor hassle na pagsakay sa bus, mare, joyce, nyc, maryka, mel & sj wootwoot!, wazer, eric, ange, kia, andy, and that guy who's always passing me by. 

can't believe i got kicked by just one red horse...daaaang...i hate the sick feeling after a drink....

met up with old friends this afternoon....what a shame i remember so little!! but it's pretty cool, when you get to see long lost friends...i mean, people should do that...it's pretty much enriching...

i miss ruggedly!!! asan na kayo!!!